I forgot to update you guys! Sorry about that. I asked you all to pray, and then forgot to update you. My new gynecologist does in fact suspect endometriosis. In fact, he brought it up before I did. While we aren’t 100% sure that’s what it is, he says it’s the most likely thing right now. He switched my birth control pills to a different type that should keep it in check, and I won’t have a period for three months, so yay! There’s that. Now I just hope that the pills fix the problem…otherwise, surgery (two surgeries) may be in my future. So again, please pray. Just continue to pray that this is solved. I’m still in pain, but at least we have a potential answer now, so I’m satisfied just with that.
You know, when you stop and think about it, silence is really a funny thing. It’s the thing that we all crave at the end of a long day. When we have had a long day, filled with hustle and bustle, we would crave even just a moment of total silence–a time to clear our heads from the world around us. We are constantly saturated with noise and need a break, and yet it is this very saturation, this constant state of motion of the world around us…this connectedness to our technology that makes us terrified of silence. We feel like if we spent even one moment alone in total silence, we would hear our innermost thoughts…would see our real selves…and that’s a side of ourselves that we are afraid of. Whatever the case may be, it’s pretty sad that we don’t want to face ourselves…that we have to drown out everything around us because the silence is too deafening.
There is beauty to be found in silence, if you know how to find it. My favorite way to enjoy the silence is to just sit in nature…with only the sound of the wind moving through the trees, or the waves on the sand crashing. If you’re looking for pure silence, perhaps try going out to see the starts in an area that’s good for camping late one night. Then, look up at the sky, watch the shooting stars, and just forget about everything else around you. Enjoy the peace the silence brings. It’s not so scary, we just have to learn how to embrace it.