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Just Me — Part 1: A Life Update

Haven’t really been up to much lately. Just working and spending time with my husband. This month has been pretty busy, but things are starting to look up. My follow-up appointment for my suspected endometriosis is in just a few weeks…hopefully we’ll have an answer to that. I’ve also released a lot of my anger, bitterness, and more. I’ve given it all over to God, and I’m feeling great. I mean, I’ve already been a Christian for most of my life, but whenever you actually just choose to stop harboring anger towards those who have wronged you, it’s so freeing.

I keep just trucking along, working hard, being happy. 🙂 I’ll update the blog again soon.


Resolution: My Quest to Better Myself in the New Year

We all make New Year’s resolutions, and many of us rarely keep those resolutions. Sometimes we try to make resolutions to spend less money, to eat more healthfully, to go to the gym three days a week, etc. Whatever the case may be, resolutions are hard to keep. We just get so lost in the hustle and bustle of the world around us that we forget to pay attention to our resolutions, and they fall by the wayside until “next year.” This is not going to be the case with me, this year. My resolution is simple: to no longer apologize for being myself: to love myself exactly the way I am, remembering who I am and whose I am. That’s just about all that anyone can really expect of you.

Medical Update

I forgot to update you guys! Sorry about that. I asked you all to pray, and then forgot to update you. My new gynecologist does in fact suspect endometriosis. In fact, he brought it up before I did. While we aren’t 100% sure that’s what it is, he says it’s the most likely thing right now. He switched my birth control pills to a different type that should keep it in check, and I won’t have a period for three months, so yay! There’s that. Now I just hope that the pills fix the problem…otherwise, surgery (two surgeries) may be in my future. So again, please pray. Just continue to pray that this is solved. I’m still in pain, but at least we have a potential answer now, so I’m satisfied just with that.

Silence: Our Deepest Fear, Our Deepest Longing

via Daily Prompt: Silent

You know, when you stop and think about it, silence is really a funny thing. It’s the thing that we all crave at the end of a long day. When we have had a long day, filled with hustle and bustle, we would crave even just a moment of total silence–a time to clear our heads from the world around us. We are constantly saturated with noise and need a break, and yet it is this very saturation, this constant state of motion of the world around us…this connectedness to our technology that makes us terrified of silence. We feel like if we spent even one moment alone in total silence, we would hear our innermost thoughts…would see our real selves…and that’s a side of ourselves that we are afraid of. Whatever the case may be, it’s pretty sad that we don’t want to face ourselves…that we have to drown out everything around us because the silence is too deafening.

There is beauty to be found in silence, if you know how to find it. My favorite way to enjoy the silence is to just sit in nature…with only the sound of the wind moving through the trees, or the waves on the sand crashing. If you’re looking for pure silence, perhaps try going out to see the starts in an area that’s good for camping late one night. Then, look up at the sky, watch the shooting stars, and just forget about everything else around you. Enjoy the peace the silence brings. It’s not so scary, we just have to learn how to embrace it.

I Prefer

There are a few things that you don’t know about me. They’re small, mundane, insignificant things, really, but given that I want my readers to know a little more about me, and considering that today’s prompt was “prefer,” I figured this was the perfect thing to talk about.

  • I prefer bananas over apples. I have a jaw problem, so apples are a little too crunchy for me. They make my jaw pop and hurt, and I’m not really a fan of that.
  • I prefer horses over any other type of animal, but right now, I’ve only got a cat as a pet. Though I hope to own at least a dog or two in the next few years, and to eventually get another cat to keep our current one company.
  • I prefer Monopoly over almost any other board game, and I’m trying to collect as many interesting or unique versions of the game as I can. Unfortunately, not a lot of people want to play it with me, simply because of how long it takes, or because there’s always a lot of fighting when we play it.
  • I prefer Drama or Dramatic Comedy as TV show genres, though I can also occasionally watch Romantic Comedy, but typically only in anime.
  • I prefer purple or blue over many other colors, just because they’re cool looking,.
  • I prefer amethyst over all the other gemstones, because even though it’s not my birthstone, it’s the prettiest of all of them.

Hey, it’s not much, but I figured this was just something fun I could give you in the moment. 🙂

via Daily Prompt: Prefer


Five Things that Don’t Belong on Social Media

As I continue to read the posts on many social media sites, I see an alarming trend of things that are…annoying, to say the least. Now, normally, I am by no means the type of person to tell others what they can and can’t post online. However, there are at least five things that don’t belong there, and here’s the list:

1. Vague, Drama Posts

Posts that are vague and are meant specifically to seek attention should be avoided at all costs. I can’t tell you how many times I have seen someone post something along the lines of, “That’s it, I’m so done helping people!” And then someone comments, “what happened?” and the OP replies: “message me.” If you’re not publicly willing to share the events surrounding your frustration, then why are you posting the drama behind it. I get the need to vent, but maybe in that situation, private message a couple of people, rather than airing your dirty laundry all over the internet.

2. Chain Letters

Chain letters are just annoying, and there isn’t exactly a point to them. No one is going to die if they don’t share a message with 64 of their closest friends, or miraculously find true love or come into extra money for doing so. I also really despise those chain posts that say, “like and share if you aren’t ashamed of Jesus,” or “if you don’t like and share this, you are heartless.” I’m sorry, but my relationship with God does not depend on whether or not I reblog/repost a social media status. God isn’t going to reject me because I didn’t share a status about him. And just because I don’t share a status about a tragic event doesn’t mean I’m heartless…it just means that it’s a post that has been circulating for a while, and sharing it isn’t really going to do anything other than just show solidarity with the person mentioned in the post.

3. Posts that Publicly Call Out/Shame those on Your Friends List by Name

Another post that I have seen a lot of recently are those that say: “John Smith, you are going to be in a world of trouble when my crew catches up with you,” or something along these lines. Perhaps the people posting them are just trying to be “cool” or “ghetto,” or whatever. However, there’s really no point to doing this, and it’s still a form of airing drama. What purpose does it serve?

4. Things You Don’t Want People to Comment On

I get that we all post things that we like/agree with/support, but we shouldn’t be surprised if someone who disagrees with our viewpoint chooses to comment on what we post. If we don’t want to engage in discussion with someone about it, then we shouldn’t be posting it at all, or if we’re going to post it, we should disable comments for that post (if we’re able to). I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen someone post, “What does everyone think about…(insert random subject/topic here)” and then I give my viewpoint, which is in contrast to what the OP believes, and then they get angry at me or tell me to stop commenting. Again, if you’re not open to opposition or comments, you probably shouldn’t be posting.

5. Gullible “Just In Case” Type Posts

Another form of chain letter, I refer to these as “gullible posts” or “just in case” posts, due to the comments that I’ve seen being made from the people who post them. First of all, there’s the post that says something to the effect of “according the Rome council….I do not give my permission for Facebook to use my information.” Great, but there’s two problems. First of all, Facebook is based out of the United States. Roman laws have no effect or jurisdiction on the company. Secondly, you automatically consent to Facebook using your information the minute you make an account and click “I have read and agree to the terms of service.” So if you truly didn’t want them using your information, or weren’t aware of it/ok with it in some capacity, you either wouldn’t have a Facebook account to begin with, or you should be considering deleting it. Then of course, there’s the “IT’S TRUE, FACEBOOK WILL BEGIN CHARGING NEXT YEAR, UNLESS YOU SHARE THIS!” Again, NO! What amount of common sense escapes the people who share these posts? Facebook staff themselves have said that Facebook is free and always will be, and not to believe these chain messages. Furthermore, if Facebook were going to start charging, it certainly wouldn’t exempt people just because they shared a post. Seriously! Where’s the logic in that?

So in short, if we all can stop creating/sharing these types of posts, we will help solve the problem that we see on social media on a regular basis, and we can make social media just a little more enjoyable…especially for daily users.

I’m Interesting: In A Peculiar Sort of Way

via Daily Prompt: Peculiar

As you probably know by now from reading my various other posts, I’m interesting, but in a very peculiar sort of way. I have been perfectly aware of this for years, and I am ok with it. It’s part of what makes me, me. 🙂 So here’s a few ways that you can enjoy my peculiarity:

1. I Like Things Done A Certain Way:

If I’m going to explain a process to you, it’s easier for me to show you or to even just sit down and do it myself. This isn’t because of my lack of patience, but rather, it’s usually because the way that I understand the process is too complicated to explain. I am a visual and auditory learner, so I have to see it and hear it, so it’s easier if I can just do it. If you deviate from that way, it confuses me, even if your way is simpler than mine.

2. I Have to Read Out Loud to Comprehend:

Although I am a very good reader and writer, I need to read out loud in order to fully comprehend exactly what it is I am reading. If I can’t, I may end up having to read the same thing over and over again a few times until I understand what I am reading. Things tend to go more slowly if I read silently, whereas if I read out loud, my comprehension is a lot better, and as a result, I can read far more quickly. This is also why if I need to memorize something, I need to read it out loud and then try repeating it over and over again to myself before I can be “off-book,” “off-text” or whatever else I may need to stop relying on to learn the information.

3. I Am A Walking Encyclopedia of Random Information:

Ever have one of those friends who’s good at trivia nights? That’s me, at least, for the most part. I am a walking encyclopedia of random information that no one really cares about, but it may very well come in handy one day. I love knowledge, I love absorbing information and learning new things, even if they’re not necessarily things that I would want to know. I read the bottom of Snapple lids, I retain certain information from commercials, TV shows, etc.

4. I Have Weird Habits

I just have weird habits, like checking to make sure I’ve turned off (or on) everything, even if I already checked it. For example, I may have checked to see if my alarm is on for the next day when I need to get up for work, but then I’ll check again to make sure that I didn’t accidentally turn it off while I was double-checking. Lol. I’m so weird.

So I guess you could say that I’m essentially the perfect combination of two memes: Socially-Awkward Penguin and Anxiety Cat. But yet, I’m ok with that. I love my strange, peculiar nature, and frankly, I wouldn’t have my personality any other way.

Things I Want to Learn

via Daily Prompt: Educate

Thanks to my INFJ personality type, I am constantly wanting to learn, grow, and change–to better myself in some capacity. I also believe that you should never stop learning until the end of your life. With that said, here’s a list of a few things that I would like to learn within the next ten years:

1. American Sign Language

I love learning languages, and American Sign Language (ASL) has always been one of the most intriguing languages that I would want to learn. Besides that, there’s a real need for it all across the country, and if I can help someone else by utilizing skills in this area, then I think that would be a really great thing. I imagine it would take a year or so to learn, but I think getting the practice would be hard, as I don’t really know anyone who is deaf that I could practice signing with. Maybe a Skype session would work.

2. Guitar

I’ve always had a real interest in learning how to play the guitar. I’ve tried throughout the years with moderate success, but I’ve almost always lost the ability in some capacity. However, I think it would be kind of cool to start up a Christian band or something of the like, and I would like to sing and play guitar. I really want to learn on the electric guitar, but I think that the acoustic electric would be a better place to start. And since I have a Macbook, I have GarageBand, so I can start recording demos. You know, I just have to get a USB microphone and pop filter first.

3. A Wide Array of Recipes

I love cooking, and while I consider myself a pretty good cook, I’d say that I definitely need to learn a few more recipes. If I could memorize at least 20 to 30 recipes, I would say that would be sufficient. Ideally, I’d like to have a few different recipes committed to memory that I could easily pop out and cook for a large group of people. Something that I could do for each season, especially around Christmastime (my favorite time of year).

These are just a few of the things that I would like to learn within the next few years, but I don’t think they’ll take all that long. Just some practice, determination, and some good people to help me.

Paying Homage to the Good Old Days

via Daily Prompt: Homage

Remember when we were children and there were things that we absolutely loved doing, songs that we loved singing, or games that we enjoyed participating in? Perhaps there was a certain candy or TV show that you really enjoyed from “back in the day.” Whatever the case may be, I think that many of us would say that those were the “good old days.” The days when we could just do those things with reckless abandon and not have to worry about spending too much time on the TV while shirking other responsibilities, etc. We could just be kids.

Here are a few of my favorite “good old days” things that I miss, and that I wish would make a comeback. See if you agree with me.

Kim Possible

Kim Possible was easily one of my favorite Disney Shows, as it was so much fun to get lost in the adventures with her. It was a popular show for a few years, but then it sort of went by the wayside after a while. Shame, it was fun to watch. I’d definitely watch it again if they released it on Netflix or something.

Sitting at Home, Listening to My Parents’ Favorite Music

I grew up listening to a pretty interesting mix of music. My dad always liked to put on Kenny Rogers’ song: The Gambler, while my mom liked to listen to some of the more classic Christian songs of her time, like Mary Did You Know, and Household of Faith. Of course, there was also whatever was on the radio at the time as a 90s kid. Usually that consisted of something along the lines of Truly, Madly, Deeply by Savage Garden, From This Moment On, or something to that effect. I truly believe that the 90s had some of the best love songs out there.

Drake & Josh

Of course, who could forget the dynamic duo that was Drake & Josh? Starring Drake Bell and Josh Peck as two boys who become stepbrothers, this show follows their lives and crazy interactions with each other on a daily basis. I really enjoyed watching that show, and wish that they would put the entire series on Netflix.

In general, I really just miss how simple life was back then. As Andy Bernard said in The Office, “I wish there was a way to know you were in the good old days before you left them” But life is still good, and God is still great, and I know that he has amazing, wonderful things planned for me. So, I’ll stay tuned and see exactly who he created me to be, and what he has in store for me.


How to Shimmer: Being A Beacon of Hope

via Daily Prompt: Shimmer

I have decided that I want to be a beacon of hope to all that I encounter. For me, personally, this means doing quite a number of things. The first is getting my tattoo next year, which is both a combination of my personal story and also my testimony that I want to share with the world.

I’ve also started a small way of being a beacon of hope at work. I bought a small, dry-erase white board, and various colored dry-erase markers to go along with it. Then, each day, I write a funny or inspirational quote on it. Some of my coworkers see it and love it. Others don’t see it, but they will in time.

Finally, I just try to act as Jesus would in any situation. It can be tricky sometimes, but he gives us grace each and every time. And that’s what I love. He continues to transform me from the inside out, and for that reason, I’m very grateful.