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How to Shimmer: Being A Beacon of Hope

via Daily Prompt: Shimmer

I have decided that I want to be a beacon of hope to all that I encounter. For me, personally, this means doing quite a number of things. The first is getting my tattoo next year, which is both a combination of my personal story and also my testimony that I want to share with the world.

I’ve also started a small way of being a beacon of hope at work. I bought a small, dry-erase white board, and various colored dry-erase markers to go along with it. Then, each day, I write a funny or inspirational quote on it. Some of my coworkers see it and love it. Others don’t see it, but they will in time.

Finally, I just try to act as Jesus would in any situation. It can be tricky sometimes, but he gives us grace each and every time. And that’s what I love. He continues to transform me from the inside out, and for that reason, I’m very grateful.

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Reinventing the Wheel of Embarrassment

via Daily Prompt: Wheel

Well, it finally happened. The one thing that I fear the most about doing my business in a public bathroom or the bathroom at work…clogging the toilet. I’ve been known to clog a few toilets in my day. Ironically, the day that my husband and I first moved into our old apartment was also the first (and only) day that I clogged the toilet there and flooded the bathroom, much to the dismay of our downstairs neighbors, as there was an unknown hole in our floor and their ceiling. And well, things got..wet…fast. Fortunately, no damage was done, the hole was eventually caulked, and we moved out of that place and somehow got our deposit back. We’re in a much nicer, newer apartment now and, thankfully, I haven’t clogged the toilet here yet, though I’m sure that “yet” is the key word.

Anyway, it finally happened at work yesterday, and I was so embarrassed. Our bathroom isn’t public, thank goodness, and it has a cipher lock on the door so that only employees can go in, so that saved me some embarrassment, at least. Imagine my horror when I discovered the toilet was clogged at work. I’m not the best at plunging toilets, and I certainly didn’t want to go have someone help me because well, then they would have known that I was the one who clogged it, and then everyone would have heard about it. Office gossip travels fast, no matter what sort of office you work in.

Not wanting to embarrass myself any further than I already had (at least mentally, since no one knows about it except for just now), I grabbed the toilet plunger and said to myself, “ok, we’re going to do this! I don’t need help, we’re just going to try our best and do this!” I was so grateful that the plunger was inside the stall next to the toilet and not in a supply closet somewhere. That’s the last thing I want to be seen toting into the bathroom…especially since I’m still “the new girl,” as I’ve really only been with this company for a little over a month.

So I faced the toilet and somewhat confidently (but with mounting doubts) attempted to plunge the toilet. Thankfully, the clog came loose on my first try, I didn’t make a mess on the floor, I didn’t overflow the toilet, and it flush on my first attempt. That never happens. I was so happy. I immediately put the plunger back in its spot next to the toilet, washed my hands, and scurried out of the bathroom. I didn’t want anyone to know what had happened. Ironic, right? Especially given that I’m telling you, now. Oh well, all’s well that ends well. In reality, I guess it wasn’t as embarrassing as I’m making it out to be, mostly because I was by myself when it all happened, but it could have been so much worse. Thankfully, it wasn’t. Hopefully, I don’t ever have to worry about that again. But now you know why I really don’t like doing number two in bathrooms that aren’t at my home.

Whatever. C’est la vie, que sera sera. Moving on, and hoping that I never experience that again, at least not until I have my own house. 🙂

 

Free to Be Me: Escaping the Retail Uniform Once and For All

via Daily Prompt: Uniform

You never realize how good it feels to be free from the horrid uniforms that you have to wear in retail (or most corporate, customer-facing companies, for that matter), until you finally are free. For years, I hated wearing my various companies’ uniforms. It didn’t make me feel like part of the team at all, it just made me feel frumpy and unnoticed, if anything else. I looked just like everyone else, so there was nothing unique or individual about me. Fortunately, when I started my job at this new company a few weeks ago, one of the many blessings that came with it is that, while I still have to wear professional clothing, it can still be business casual. And, even more importantly, every Friday is casual Friday. We’re talking jeans and t-shirts or hoodies! Yay!

Now, I never really realized how badly uniforms affected me emotionally until my last few months at my former company. I was craving some sort of self-expression, and I finally found a shrug that the company had created for us to wear, and since I could wear solid-colored shirts underneath it (gray, blue, black, white, etc.) I felt semi-empowered. I finally had a choice in regard to what I wore! And it finally gave me an excuse to wear jewelry! Normally, I only wear my wedding ring and that’s it, because there haven’t really been many opportunities for me to express myself in the workplace. Now, however, that has all changed. At my new company, I can wear a nice sweater, a dress, pretty much whatever I want as long as it meets the business-casual criteria, which really isn’t all that hard to fulfill at all.

There are many reasons why my depression has lifted, and most of them are job-related, but I think my clothing is honestly the biggest reasons. Perhaps it also has to do with the fact that we have casual Fridays. I love wearing some of my favorite t-shirts with various sayings on them to work, to see who gets the reference. So far, this is the only one that I have worn on a casual Friday, and no one really noticed it, but I’m hoping they eventually will.

I also found out that we have a Christmas party every year at my company, and do Secret Santa. We had that at my last company, but it was a holiday party, and Secret Santa had to be called “Secret Friend.” However, this company is so laid-back that I don’t think most people mind calling it Christmas or Secret Santa. Anyway, I’m going to find out if the party happens during the workday, or after-hours. If it is hosted after-hours, and if  we don’t have to dress professionally for it, or if we have an ugly sweater contest, then I am totally going to wear this. I bought it specifically for use around the holidays for two reasons. First, I love the Lion King. It is absolutely my favorite Disney movie ever. Second, who doesn’t want an ugly Christmas sweater?

Finally, being able to dress the way that I want to opens up more doors for me in terms of conversation, which means that I can spark more friendships, find common interests, get recommendations on where to shop for certain items, etc. There’s just so much freedom in wearing what you want. I fully believe that we wear that which we want to define us, because we like it, and our likes and dislikes are part of who we are. Therefore, when I can wear what I want, part of my true identity comes out. I don’t feel like I have to hide in my shell anymore, I can just be myself. And what a beautiful feeling it is to simply be oneself.

 

A Positive Descent into Happiness

via Daily Prompt: Descend

It isn’t typical that you think of the word “descend” or “descent” as a positive thing, however, in this case, it is. With my new job, I am finally able to be myself. I am not stressed out, and after just three days of being there and them allowing me to be hands-on, I have already learned the ropes and understand the majority of my job. They welcome new opinions, and when you tell them that you found a better way of doing something, other than the way that you are “supposed” to do it, or were taught to do it, they say, “you know, that actually makes sense.” It’s so nice to hear that. I’ve never heard that from any employer  before. Typically, past employers would say, “well, that’s just the way we do things, so you have to do them that way,” or “no, your idea won’t work because XYZ.” It’s not like that here at all. Here, they understand that much of what we do involves a very long process, and so they actually encourage us to find ways of doing it that are quickest for us. Which is nice.

In this job, I can be independent, and left to just do my own work. Sure, someone may come and get a status report from me every once in a while, but I’m OK with that. For the most part, I am generally left alone unless someone wants to show me something, or unless I ask a question, and that is wonderful. Best of all, I’m in my own cubicle, which I can decorate however I want, and I don’t have to answer phones (at least not as of yet,) or talk to the public. That’s great for an introvert like me. I am definitely a people person, but I’m more of a one to three people at a time, kind of person, so an atmosphere like the one I have at my new job is very relaxing for me.

Finally, I have my weekends back! I can take time on Saturday and Sunday to run errands, accomplish tasks I didn’t get a chance to accomplish throughout the week, and I don’t have to miss church anymore! This is perhaps the biggest reason for my happiness, because I have been feeling myself slowly drifting away from where I want to be in my relationship with Christ. I think that being able to go back to church every week will help strengthen and renew that relationship again. Of course, I also have every day of the week after 5:00 PM, or weekends to plan things and go have fun with my husband, my friends, my family members, or anyone else with whom I need to make plans.

In short, this job is absolutely perfect! There’s nothing whatsoever that I don’t like about it. I am loving what I am doing, and I am loving the process and everything about the job, and I have finally, finally found my career. This is the job that I plan to be at until retirement. I love it. I am so inexplicably happy, and I hope to be here for a very, very long time!

Praise be to God My Rock, my Co-Collaborator in Everything

via Daily Prompt: Collaboration

I am thankful to God every day for all that he has given me, and the ways that he blesses me on a daily basis. I also am a firm believer that he collaborates with me in my creativity, and in every aspect of life. Everything that we do as Christians should be done to give him praise, and honor, and glory. When I work on a project, I’m not just doing it for myself or for those around me, but to give him the honor and praise he deserves, and to point others to him. My friendships, my life, my work, my marriage, they’re all to bring him honor. Even my tattoo that I am getting next year is designed to bring him honor, as it is a reminder of all that he has done for me, and all that he has in store for me.

God collaborates with me on a daily basis. He provides me with all the resources I need to get through my day, and I in turn, produce that which he has designed for me to produce. Sometimes, I feel like I don’t measure up, and I know I need to spend more time with him than I do. However, I feel like I am working hard to meet my goals and get where I want to be. The way I see it, any forward progression is good progression. This new job will help me get closer to God, as it will allow me more time to spend with him at the start of my day, and it will allow me Sundays off, so I can go to church more, and even be more active in my church’s activities and volunteer events, if there is something that he lays on my heart to get involved with.

I am so thankful to God every single day that I am alive, and I hope to honor him more and continue to work towards becoming the woman that he has created me to be.

“The LORD lives! Praise to my Rock! May the God of my salvation be exalted!” (Psalm 18:46 NLT)

My Pursuit of Happiness

via Daily Prompt: Pursue

True happiness has always been something that has seemed to elude me, except for fleeting moments of bliss. That being said, there are things and people in my life that continue to make me happy. For starters, Christ makes me completely happy. He is my one true rock and source of life. To him be the glory and power forever, amen! Next, of course, is my wonderful husband. As long as we are together, I know I am loved and protected, and life is good. He is another amazing source of happiness and strength for me. Finally, my kitty, Saber. She makes me happy when I come through the door after work, because she is bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, and wanting to see me and play with me! She also likes to curl up on my lap and sleep there while I watch TV on my days off. Whose heart wouldn’t melt over that?

Of course, while all of these things make me completely happy, there are also areas of life that I have been unhappy. I have felt like I have wanted to make a difference for so long, and instead, felt as though I was simply moving from one meaningless task to another. However, finally, finally, I am moving into a position that will allow me to make a difference. It will be a subtle, behind-the-scenes difference, but that’s just fine with me, because I know that what I will be doing is actually important, and actually helps people get the care they need.

I have also felt like, due to my long work hours, I have been neglecting to spend time with the people that I care about. This will not be an issue any longer, and thus, will make me happier, as I can continue to cultivate these relationships and show people how much I really do care.

Finally, I don’t have to worry about getting screamed at by customers anymore, or put into stressful situations that could impact everyone in the company. This job is a desk job, a cubicle job, on a computer, editing documents, and that is exactly the way that I like it. It’s what I’m good at, it’s something I’m passionate about, and something that I could definitely see myself doing for years to come. Only seven more days til I start. I can’t wait! I’m so excited! This, then, as well as continuing to bond with Christ, my husband, and my kitty cat, is my pursuit of happiness, and I am glad that I am on this path. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Things I Need to Get Better at

via Daily Prompt: Better

I am all about improving myself. In fact, it’s one of the reasons why I am starting this new job in about a week. I wanted to do something that actually related to my career aspirations, goals, and skills. Of course, I also wanted more time to spend with my family, and the hours offered by that job definitely afford me that time. Therefore, I am over the moon and extremely ecstatic about the job! That being said, there are still other things I need to get better at in my personal life, and I am hoping that you, the readers, will walk this journey with me just as God does, and help me grow just as he does.

1. Spending More Time with Friends

I feel bad because I don’t get to spend a lot of time with my friends, whether that is through texting, talking on the phone, or even physically going out to spend time with them. Granted, I try to make an effort, but often, with my work schedule at my current employer, I am either working when they want to plan things, or I get off work so late every night of the week that I just want to relax on the weekends. This new job should be able to help me to do that, because I’ll only be working 8-5 on the weekdays, and not at all on the weekends.

2. Sending Out Cards

I’ve never really been much of a card sender. That’s ironic, because I am a letter writer, or at least, I try to be. However, I have one friend (a former co-worker) who had to move back to Florida, and she has been sending me cards for various things over the past few months. It really inspired me to start sending everyone cards when I hear about their life events. Whether the event merits a sympathy card, thinking of you card, congratulations card, etc. I want to send them out. I also want my husband and I to start sending Christmas cards out to people. I think small gestures like this really serve to show people you care, especially when there are people in your life that you care about deeply, but don’t always get the chance to see them or spend time with them.

3. Spacing the Laundry Out Over the Week

This one isn’t necessarily my fault. I often have to put off doing the laundry until a day off because of my work schedule at my current employer. However, now with this new job starting, I can at least do a load or even half a load when I get off work each day. Between my husband and I, we produce a lot of laundry throughout the week. I often joke about the meme that says, “with the amount of laundry I do each week, I’m starting to wonder if more than two people live here.” But it shouldn’t be nearly as much of a chore now with my work schedule, so I can do it more often.

4. Reading the Bible

This last one is extremely important to me. I feel like sometimes, my time with God gets neglected, because of how busy or tired that I am. So sometimes, weeks or even months go by without me opening the Bible at all. I don’t like that. I desperately need that time with God, and I crave it, especially when I’m saturated by the world all day long. When I don’t get to spend time with God, I often feel sad, and I feel distanced from him. Another perk of this new job is that I will be able to go to church every Sunday, so no more missing church services. And, I can either read the Bible before or after work, or even just devote some time on a Saturday and/or Sunday to do it. I believe this will strengthen my relationship with God even more, and thus will help me to grow deeper in my faith.

These are just a few of the things that I want to get better at. I am praying that God will help me with each of these. Will you, the readers, also help remind me to do these things, especially if you see me posting about them? Thank you all!

 

Another Invention Idea: Lane Bryant for Small People

This post is one that is coming out of a bit of aggravation/frustration over the last few days. As you may know from one of my previous posts, I got the job that I applied for, and am starting in 13 days. Since I am finally leaving the company that I am at that requires uniforms, I have been going a bit crazy trying to find cute, yet professional outfits that I can wear to this new job. Their atmosphere appears to be business casual, but I still want to look professional.

So, yesterday I started shopping for nice blouses/shirts/blazers/shoes, and I was pretty unsuccessful. First, I went to ShopKo. With how tiny I am, I typically wear a size 2 in dress pants, but I can sometimes be a 3, 4, or 5, depending on whether the designer used even or odd numbering, and depending on the style of the pants. ShopKo had one size two pair of pants, and I couldn’t even get them on. They had no size 4s, so the next biggest size they had from a 2 was a 6. I didn’t even bother trying on a 6, because I knew it would be way too big for me. However, after a bit of perusing, I did manage to find a nice blouse that I can wear to work. It was three-piece, all connected blouse: with a white shirt as the base, a green shrug attached to it, and a nice blue and green scarf attached to that. It looks really nice, and it was marked down from $47 to $17, so I got it, knowing that I was getting a great deal.

When I tried on their (ShopKo’s) shoes, none of the professional flats that I liked fit me properly. Normally, I am a size 9 in shoes, but in dress shoes, I can be an 8, 8 1/2, or 9, just depending on the design of the shoe and whether they run small, large, or true-to-size. Well, the 9s were huge on me, the 8 1/2s were still slipping off the back of my heel, and the 8s were too tight in the toes. Not enjoyable at all. So, after purchasing the shirt, I left ShopKo and went to Target.

Target had two pairs of pants in size 4 that I was willing to try on. The first pair had legs that dragged on the ground, and I knew I would have to hem them, which I don’t have time, desire, or ability to. The second pair had the same issue, but it wasn’t as bad, so I was willing to get them. That was, until I looked at the back of the pants. Despite being black, they were very see-through–to the point that you could tell I was wearing white panties. Needless to say, those would not work for professional purposes. Then, target had one pair of shoes in an 8 that would have worked, but I just didn’t think they would be comfortable long-term, so I just bought some household items that I needed, and then left.

Finally, I made one last stop: Fred Meyer. I was hoping that they would have something that would work for me. Well, the shoes were a complete disappointment. They had no ballet flats whatsoever, and nothing that looked professional, so that was a bust. I then ventured over to their women’s clothing department, and looked for pants. The smallest size they had there was 6, even in the junior’s department. Annoyed and frustrated at this point, I just left.

I have thus come to a conclusion. Stores like Lane Bryant exist exclusively for plus-size women, so why can’t there be a similar store exclusively for petite women? A store that only sold clothes sizes 0-6 would be great. That way, we could still get clothes that looked nice on us, there would be an abundance of styles and sizes to choose from, and we wouldn’t have to worry about the issues I ran into yesterday. However, fashion designers must not recognize that anything smaller than a 6 exists, so that’s frustrating. Maybe one day someone will come up with a Lane Bryant for petite women. We can only hope.

Update on the Job Front

Well guys, I got the job! I’m so happy right now! I will be starting the new job on the 17th. While I certainly obtained many valuable experiences during my time at my current job, I am glad to be moving on from my current company, and onto the new one. The new one boasts higher pay, allows me to do something I’m passionate about, is guaranteed M-F 8-5, and even lets me wear whatever I want to, as long as it looks professional! I’m so excited! Words cannot even begin to express how happy I am right now! Of course, I’ll be posting more blog posts in the next few days/weeks, but I just wanted to update everyone about this!

Getting A Chuckle Out of the Little Things

via Daily Prompt: Chuckle

There are many things that will rouse my coworkers’ sense of humor, but it often seems as though many of the things I say and do are things that cause said chuckling. I don’t mind, it’s just part of life, and if it makes people happy, then that’s awesome!

I want to share with you something hilarious that happened a few days ago. I had been nearing my limits of how long I could hold having to pee, as I’d had to go for a while and hadn’t had the opportunity. Everyone was out of the office, so I couldn’t leave, and customers kept coming up and needing things, and so did sales consultants. Finally, my boss and one other person came back in, and I was so happy to see them, because it meant I could finally take a break and go to the bathroom.

Since I didn’t want to be interrupted again and thus forced to hold my pee any longer, I looked at my boss as soon as she walked in and said, “I have to pee, I’ve had to pee for the last two hours,” then walked out the door without waiting for acknowledgement, and scurried off to the bathroom. Fortunately, the bathroom is just around the corner, so it wasn’t too far of a trip.

Apparently, my boss was left standing in the office wondering what the heck just happened, and one of our buyers was coming around the corner and saw me running to the bathroom. I didn’t even see him, so I must have been in a blind frenzy to get to the bathroom undeterred.

Of course, after having a day off, I come back into work, and everyone in the store has heard the story. My boss printed out a document with clipart from the Animaniacs, and the words “I have a potty emergency!!!” She gave it to me, and I got a chuckle out of it. I jokingly said that I should just hold up that sign the next time I needed to go to the bathroom, then walk out. She agreed. She also said, “but you have to say, ‘I have a potty emergency’ in a British accent.” Then she showed me this clip, which inspired the sign she made for me. I thought it was absolutely hilarious.

Everyone in the store had to take turns joking around with me about it, and the story got told at least three more times. In all honesty, I had only said that because I wanted to make it clear that I needed to go to the bathroom before anyone asked me to do anything else, so that was my intent. However, it got taken in a much funnier way, and I’m actually quite glad that I now have something to joke about on an almost daily basis with my coworkers, as I can shout “I have a potty emergency” any time I have to go! 😛